I have about ninety rough drafts of articles for this blog. I wrote them before launching, and now they’re just waiting for me to edit the fuck out of them.
I wrote them so that I’d never have to worry or stress about what to write next.
I’d never miss a deadline because I have articles ready, and all I need to do is rewrite and edit them.
But today, I’m writing a new article.
The truth is… none of those articles feel right. At least, not for today.
I’ve been a mess the past couple of weeks
I’m always tired, I get overwhelmed too easily, and I feel like I have no motivation to do anything.
I only get through a few items on my to-do list every day, and my unproductiveness stresses me out even more.
I’m not entirely sure why I feel like this—so that sucks—but I am sure of one thing: I have to write about it.
To write an article giving you advice or tips would be hypocritical of me because I’m just barely getting by.
I'm not going to pretend everything is perfect
The last thing I want to do is put up a front and pretend to be someone I’m not.
I’m not going to sit here and act like I have my shit together when the truth is I feel like shit.
Too many of us wear masks. We pretend to be okay, to have our lives together, to like a bunch of crap we don’t.
Doing this has only led to stress, the pressure to succeed, and endless insecurities.
It’s up to us to speak our truths and to be open, vulnerable, and honest.
I had to write this article because this is my truth.
I may have just launched a blog, and I might love what I do, but I’m still twenty-one-year-old who has no fucking clue was she’s doing.
I’m taking it day by day. And that’s okay.
All you can give is your best
It’s okay that this article is fucking short. This is the best I can do today.
I won’t always be able to write a one-thousand-word article. You won’t always finish a painting or take a perfect photo.
Sometimes, all you can do is your best, and whatever comes out of it is perfectly okay.
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